Last Tues: 147.4
No Snoopy happy dance today though, because the Tuesday before last was 145, and I don't know how or why I let that slip through my fingers. I'm happy I lost weight since then, and I know my other progress counts and blah blah blah, but to be honest, I was hoping to see 145 again today so I could chalk last week's 2.4 lb gain to just a bad bloated morning. I know I'm giving the scale # too much power over my frame of mind. I just can't believe that gain was legit - and this morning's weigh in pretty much proves it.
And this is precisely the type of mind games Enyonam refers to in her last comment. I understand it, recognize it, know I should get over it...but here I am refusing to post my Snoopy happy dance after losing 1.4 lbs this week.
I feel that this kinda thing needs just as much focus and adjustment as my diet, weight, flab and muscle tone. I don't expect to reach goal weight and fitness level and then stay there unchanged for the next 30+ years. I'm going to have minor gains and getting back on track over the course of my life. I'll likely have phases where exercise isn't a priority. I don't think I'll ever get WAY off track, but who knows...with a health issue or something like that, who knows what could take over my focus and change my path. I don't want my flabbiness to equal discontent with life, or muscle tone to be a requirement for me to feel like I'm succeeding at life. Come to think of it, last week's mini-challenge to Pay it Forward couldn't have come at a better time for me, with these thoughts going through my mind. Diet and fitness have their place...but I don't want them dictating my self worth.
That being said, I still don't want to post the dancing Snoopy because I'm 1 lb higher than 2 weeks ago. Yep. That's silly and it's why I need work at this.