Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Week 12 Weigh-In, Silliness, Happiness & Self Worth

Last Tues: 147.4
Now:  146

No Snoopy happy dance today though, because the Tuesday before last was 145, and I don't know how or why I let that slip through my fingers.  I'm happy I lost weight since then, and I know my other progress counts and blah blah blah, but to be honest, I was hoping to see 145 again today so I could chalk last week's 2.4 lb gain to just a bad bloated morning.  I know I'm giving the scale # too much power over my frame of mind.  I just can't believe that gain was legit - and this morning's weigh in pretty much proves it.

And this is precisely the type of mind games Enyonam refers to in her last comment.  I understand it, recognize it, know I should get over it...but here I am refusing to post my Snoopy happy dance after losing 1.4 lbs this week.

I feel that this kinda thing needs just as much focus and adjustment as my diet, weight, flab and muscle tone.  I don't expect to reach goal weight and fitness level and then stay there unchanged for the next 30+ years.  I'm going to have minor gains and getting back on track over the course of my life.  I'll likely have phases where exercise isn't a priority.  I don't think I'll ever get WAY off track, but who knows...with a health issue or something like that, who knows what could take over my focus and change my path.  I don't want my flabbiness to equal discontent with life, or muscle tone to be a requirement for me to feel like I'm succeeding at life.  Come to think of it, last week's mini-challenge to Pay it Forward couldn't have come at a better time for me, with these thoughts going through my mind.  Diet and fitness have their place...but I don't want them dictating my self worth.

That being said, I still don't want to post the dancing Snoopy because I'm 1 lb higher than 2 weeks ago.  Yep.  That's silly and it's why I need work at this.


  1. I knew you weren't going to gain. Great news!

  2. a loss is a loss and you've done good.

    if you now the scale plays a little too much in how you feel or your motivation level, I say ditch the scale and weigh-in every other week.

    Especially since you're close to goal weight/BMI/body fat AND you strength-train, the number on the scale is going to start to slow down. Find other ways to measure your progress (like you awesome progress picts from last week!) and stick to those instead.

    For example, I weight pretty much the same as I did last month, but based on my most recent measurments, everything except the scale is down: inches, body fat, clothing size.

    Keep it up girl, you know you're doing the right thing for your body... your body just needs time to catch up (and it will).

    1. I really do need to get back to the gym and get my BMI and Fat% calculated again. It's really great that you know all your stats and measurements. I want to know the deal w/ my own body and progress too. Gonna try to get a friend to bring me as a guest to the gym Thursday where I can get my BMI/BF% recalculated.

  3. Do remember that as you build muscle, you gain weight. You have definitely toned up (seen in your recent pictures). Keep doing what you're doing. Focus on the healthy lifestyle that you're building and enjoy the improved fitness that you can see in your tennis, hikes, etc. You are on the right track.

    It is good to keep track of what's going on your body so that you can learn how to make adjustments. You can do this. Don't get frustrated.