My workout buddy is gone

Today's report:

Your Daily Summary

492

CALORIES REMAINING

Goal	Food	Exercise	= Net
1200	1513	- 805	708

Exercise:  Hiking/Rock climbing - 1 hr 48 min

I had to have my sweet kitty of 15 years put to sleep 2 days ago, and it's awful exercising at home now, because it's the 1st time since I started working out at home that she's not here to get in the way.  I never thought I'd miss that so much.  It was an annoyance for all these years.  She particularly liked to sit in front of the full length mirror I'd put up to keep check on my form... Just sit and gaze at herself, then at me through the mirror, then back at herself.  (Vain little thing.)  Then she'd come close to me when I did floor work and try to lay as close to my head as possible when I had to lay supine, or she'd come up and sniff my face. I'd have to nudge her away, and she'd give me an annoyed "Hmmmmm" - like an "alright, fine..."  EVERY time.

Rest in peace, sweet girl.  :(    I think I'll always think of her and smile for the rest of my life when I workout at home - when that full length mirror is completely unobstructed, and no one bugs me during crunches.  >sigh<

It's worse than I thought. A lot worse.

I was 144 two wks ago. 
145.6 last week.

148.8 this week.  Ah, being a woman is such a joy....  I love how my period always starts the night before or morning of weighing myself.

I have no idea what this weight reflects.  Fat, muscle, water weight...whatever.  What I do know is that I can be eating better, and I should be more focused on the nutrition and how I feel, and less on the scale #.  And I also know that, though I know this - I really do! - I still seem to care most about the scale #.... and I don't know how to get past that.  And then again, maybe I don't really have to.  Maybe my gain over 2 weeks is indicative of an issue I need to address.  Maybe I need to stop splurging here and there and telling myself I "earned it", or that I'll work it off later.  Maybe when I get to the point where the scale is saying what I want it to say, it will be because I've put in the effort to control myself and eat wiser. Or rather - to not eat dumber. (B/C really, it's those dumb eating spells that do me in.)

4.8 lbs gained in two weeks though.  Sheesh....

Today's report:

Your Daily Summary

-91

CALORIES REMAINING

Goal	Food	Exercise	= Net
1200	1637	- 346	1291

Exercise:  Crunch Fitness Step & Sweat w/ 10" step


Yesterdays' report:

Your Daily Summary

220

CALORIES REMAINING

Goal	Food	Exercise	= Net
1200	1516	- 536	980

Exercise:  Tae Bo Ripped Extreme w/ weights

Week 16 Complete - Another weigh in to face

Today's report:

Your Daily Summary

-1132

CALORIES REMAINING

Goal	Food	Exercise	= Net
1200	2332	0	2332

Weigh in tomorrow....But I can't exercise tonight.  I did something bad to my lower back, and then - stupidly - I did last night's workout despite it still nagging me.    Some of the moves really irritated it more.  I took them very easy, but still, it was clearly a mistake since I hurt now and can't bend or straighten without feeling like I'm creaking.

3 mimosas and a beer didn't help my calorie count today, but I am still under my cal amount for the week. However, my period is just starting tonight, so who knows...  I have a 1.6 lb gain I was trying to work off.  I think I'll get a more accurate account of this week's success at next week's weigh in rather than now.  I'm also looking puffy suddenly today.  Just not a happy time to get on the scale.  But I will.

This week's stats:
Tue: ate 1433 cals.  Burned 346 cals doing 38 min step aerobics
Wed:  ate 1737 cals.  Burned 536 cals doing 1 hr cardio w/ weight work.
Thur: ate 1319 cals.  Burned 925 cals playing tennis for 2 hrs
Fri:  ate 2365 cals.  No exercise
Sat:  ate 1647 cals.  Burned 925 cals playing tennis for 2 hrs (didn't use HRM again - just used info from last time, same length of time)
Sun: ate 1817 cals.  Burned 464 cals doing 1 hr cardio and weight work
Mon:  ate 2332 cals.  No exercise.

Total cals for week:  12,650
Total burned:  3,196 (6 hrs 40 min of exercise)
TOTAL: 9,454  (1,054 over goal for week....crap.)

just my daily reports

Friday's report:

Your Daily Summary

-1165

CALORIES REMAINING

Goal	Food	Exercise	= Net
1200	2365	0	2365

Saturday's report:

Your Daily Summary

477

CALORIES REMAINING

Goal	Food	Exercise	= Net
1200	1647	- 924	723

exercise:  2 hrs tennis

Sunday's report:

Your Daily Summary

-153

CALORIES REMAINING

Goal	Food	Exercise	= Net
1200	1817	- 464	1353

exercise:  Jillian Michaels' Shed & Shred 1&2 w/ weights

Holy crap, I'm going to weigh 12 lbs by September!!

Not lose 12 lbs...WEIGH 12 lbs!  I love tennis too much!  My tennis pal and I have to force ourselves to stop after 2 hours.  We played through spotty rain today and only stopped then because the court got too slippery to play safely, and I slipped and scuffed up my shin.  I was exhausted and exuberant and wanted push on for another 3 hours.  I ate 1319 calories today, and burned 925 simply having fun w/ my friend.  This rocks!!  I want to do this every single day, but I can't eat enough to compensate for it.  I'll just wither away and die.  Plus, I already bought a beautiful vintage wedding dress and had it fitted, and I weighed about 155 then.  I either have to limit the tennis or get one of those camel packs and fill it with maple syrup to keep sipping from while I play.  Or I'll need to have the dress re-fitted (which will be a real bitch since it was a total reconstruction with material taken from some places and sewn into others by a vintage clothing specialist.  Oy!!  She's gonna kill me!)

In all likelihood,  I'll stay too busy to play tennis more than twice a week.  This week though -it's twice!  Plus I'm planning to get a good strenuous hike in over the long weekend.  Ha!  It's so odd that I'm suddenly finding myself thinking of ways to healthfully increase my calorie intake...just enough to keep fueling great workouts.

Your Daily Summary

806

CALORIES REMAINING

Goal	Food	Exercise	= Net
1200	1319	- 925	394

It's the usual time of night that I pop in a workout DVD.  I really, really want to right now.  I am stopping myself b/c that seems a little nuts after 2 hrs of tennis just a few hours ago, and a sore morning after last night's workout.  Plus, I should get to sleep earlier.  I've been saying that for many weeks but haven't really put in the effort to make that change.

I think I'm just crazy-motivated right now.  Gotta make up for last week, and I'm so psyched for June and summertime and wedding planning and the pool being open and the fact that my legs feel so much more muscular than they did this winter.  Damn, that's a good feeling!!!

OK - going to bed.  Hope to read through all you RFSC members' blogs tomorrow when it's slow at work.

Motivation pic for today - (how cool is this chick?!)

Taking it easy now to let loose on Memorial Day/Monday.

Today's report:

Your Daily Summary

- 1

CALORIES REMAINING

Goal	Food	Exercise	= Net
1200	1737	- 536	1201

Exercise:  1 hour/Tae Bo Ripped Extreme w/ weights

Tomorrow's menu is all pre-planned.  All I need is a grilled fish taco recipe.  I'm going to stay within my calorie limit each day except for Monday - Memorial Day, when I will - basically - eat and enjoy everything I feel like. BBQ, dips, mixed drinks and/or Corona beer... I love the start of summer, and the grill and hammock and the pool being opened.  So many poolside snacks and grilled meals are healthy though, so even letting loose won't be that bad with just a little thinking ahead.  I make a great 7 layer dip w/ cheese, sour cream and veggies for tortilla chips.  That and some Corona Liteor a Malibu BayBreeze drink will be my indulgence.  Maybe a dessert too.  So I'll make sure to have some lean meat and veggies on hand for grilling.

Pre-planning.  Good stuff....